man, am i a genius or what?

there are many areas in which i am lacking, and today i add yet another to that list...listening. however, i find it impossible to talk about my unbelievable lack of listening without combining it with my wonderful lack of memory that has recently been added to this list as well. i often find myself in the same conversation with james only to find out, through his anger, that we have talked about this exact same thing once maybe ever twice before. at first i thought this lack of listening was in large part due to plain old fashioned 'tuning out'. but as of late, i have realized that those things i really do want to remember escape my brain faster and faster everyday. so as i was feeding Bowen his yummy bananas today i thought to myself. 'hmm, this concludes the last of the 1st foods, what next?'. many of you would respond to this question with ease, but i could not retrace the conversation with the Dr. i had only weeks ago. now, i wonder, is this the outcome of bringing my pride and joy into the world, the effects of a stay-at-home mommy, stress, or the fact that i haven't attended school in almost two years? is my brain just wilting away? i used to consider myself smart, in fact some might recall my common reference to my geniusness, but since marriage, baby and the so-called 'job' as a mother i can no longer use the phrase. let me rimind you, and me, i am only 22 years old! 22 folks! this should not be an issue for years, even decades. so what am i going to do about it.....






well, i will be the latest name added to the student role at Utah State University. i am so excited, yet for obvious reasons a little frightened. james has finally agreed that i need to excercise my brain and get on the bandwagon of college graduates! (hey, maybe this means i get new school clothes....isn't that still part of the preparation???) and in the future i plan to not only know that bowen will be continuing in his eating regimen to include the '2nd foods' but also that james and i only need to have a conversation once!! that my mind will be full of quick whit and that i will once again be able to say, "man, am i a genious or what?"