i was told some horrible things today. horrible things about myself. i wonder why i associate myself with people of this demeaner. i have yet to come up with an answer to that question. unfortunatley this mean-spirited person who decided to tare me down where it hurts me the most didn't accomplish their goal. which i assume was to make me change....when in reality it only made my self esteem lower and therefore feelings that change is impossible whether desired, or not.
how amazing it is that as human beings we have the power to impact people. and how sad that many use this power so unwisely. i wondered today as i walked away from this person with tear-filled eyes if they felt good. does it make someone else happy to put down and rip apart anothers self esteem? why then, as humans, do we do this so often? i'm sure i have said mean things to others. there is no doubt in my mind that this person's whole intention was to hurt me though! to make me feel small! make me feel that i will never be good enough.
and so today, as i wipe away tears and feelings of inadequacy, i pray that i am never this way to another. i am also grateful to know that my self-esteem and self-worth are two totally different things. and though, some may make it their effort to tear down my self-esteem they can never change my self-worth, which was determined long before i came to this earth. since today i'm having a hard time adding to my "i am grateful.." list on the side bar....this will be it, the knowledge i have!
may you all surround yourselves with people who uplift and love!
5 comments:
You are none of those things that you were called. I wish that people would take a step back and think about what they say before they actually say it. The reality is that they are probably jealous of you and think that you are amazing and so they have to think of mean things about you to make themselves feel better. I think you are an amazing woman and mother. I am sorry that you had a bad day!
i don't know how anyone could call say those things to you! i think you are a wonderful person, very caring, freindly, and most of all a wonderful mother! i like your list of things you are grateful for, it is a great idea! i hope you have a better day tomorrow!
MARCI SAUNDERS ( I CAN'T REMEMBER YOUR NEW LAST NAME AT THIS MOMENT!) You are amazing! I LOVE reading your blog. Hearing all the fun things you do with Bowen and how active you are gives me motivation on those couch days that happen Oh so often at the Robbins House hold! I would like to know who this person was and I will junk punch them RIGHT up in thier man(or woman) business!!!! FOr rizzle!! Let's do lunch!
I've never ever been able to think a SINGLE bad thing about you!! They don't even know you obviously!! I'm so sorry! Love ya!
Geezzzz who would ever be so mean?? I'm sorry Marc, I have been through my fair share of people being awful to me.. and it's only because they are insecure about themselves... sucks that people gotta bring others down to try and make themselves feel better... but its just pure jealousy!!! They probably feel like crap now... screw em though huh? You got it all lil lady!
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