Sunday, September 19, 2010

breath in. breath out.

a couple weeks ago i was taking a long drive down a dirt road with my mom. the scene around us was breathtaking. one that i can't fully describe. i could see beautiful green trees going on as far as the eye could see until it met the perfect blue sky in the distance. i was in awe.

my mind was taking it all in and yet dreaming of something else. i said to my mom, "oh, i want to go to ireland so bad. i bet it's this green there too." my mom's reply was simple and wise. "marci, don't waste your time in Africa dreaming of somewhere else."

i have been reminded of that counsel everyday since. i am finally in my last year of school. finally. it has taken me so long because of various things and necessary breaks. and i'm finally there. i can almost taste it. my dream of finishing school is really going to come true. but for some reason i can't enjoy it.

i love fall. it's always been my favorite season, but this year i'm just super anxious for spring to arrive. next year just sounds so much funner than a long winter in utah.

i am loving living in my parents house. who wouldn't love this awesome kitchen and all this wonderful space. however, i'm anxious to have my own place again and go crazy with decorating!

so every time i start to get anxious for the future, i have to tell myself. "marci, just enjoy Africa!" and i snap back into reality. works like a charm.

thank heaven for wise mothers! {love you mom!}

5 comments:

Holly said...

That is an awesome piece of advice.

Karen said...

This is my Senior year too. I am glad to know someone else is going through the chaos of trying to study, raise a kid, keep a clean house etc. I know I want May to come fast! At the same time I want to see Sam grow, although with school I feel like I'm missing out with bonding time with him. I just keep telling myself how worth it it will be, and how awesome it will feel when I'm done. I will also have to try to "enjoy Africa". I hate to say it though... it's kind of hard to remember to enjoy when your so busy.

Margaret said...

Just so you know, I might seem wise but everyday I have to take my own advice. Every day I long to have Bo run into my arms,to get to know Krew and his new little brother, and to have Havyn read ME a story! Yup, I have to remind myself "just enjoy Africa". I'm not sure why it is so difficult to just live in the moment when our moments come and go so quickly. Honestly, when I look back on my life, I realize that years are really only moments! So try to enjoy them, they are precious and fleeting! I love you too!

Lacy Ann :) said...

Don't take for granted your last fall at school!! I graduated in May and I miss walking up on the quad in the fall. I promise you will miss it!

Nicole Norris said...

I so needed that! Thanks Marci's wise mom.